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[tanker]

[ John gives her a long, lingering look before he starts up the car again, his free hand going to her thigh. It's just a meaningless reassurance for himself, at this moment. Making sure she's not disappearing right out from under his nose. ]

It would be, yeah. I'd like that.

[ Not that it matters, at the end of the day. As long as the baby's healthy and well, John doesn't care. ]

Has it been interfering with your powers before now?

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Kind of.

( See, now she's feeling a little guilty she didn't mention it before. But she hadn't known it was important. ) I just figured I was tired, you know? But I overshot the other day when I was portalling. It was just a block, so I didn't think it was a big deal.

( Maybe she should go and cry on Lorna's couch tomorrow. See if her friend doesn't have any advice. )

And I couldn't get it to work at all on Saturday, but I was just -- sick? So I put it down to that. Maybe I should have. But I was fine with Ava.

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[ When he pulls the car to a stop at a red light, he turns to Clarice, giving her a look. ]

Talk to me about these things, yeah? Maybe I can help.

[ He isn't sure how, but just learning all of this now, when she's been struggling with her powers for weeks - after not having issues for years - feels overwhelming. ]

Ava doesn't have any portalling or teleporting powers, though. So far she just seems... sturdy.

[ Like him. ] Maybe this one's taking after you, and that's causing problems. We could go see the doc, see if there's anything he can help with.

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I wasn't keeping it from you on purpose. I just thought it was a weird hormone thing and it would sort itself out. Like the morning sickness. ( Which had definitely been worse this time around too, come to think of it. Maybe she wasn't as educated for #2 as she thought she was.

Sighing, Clarice rubs a comforting hand over her stomach, watching the lights through the windshield. ) You're already so grounded. ( Yep, talking to her baby. But she wants to ease this feeling someone. ) Out after curfew? So grounded.

( When the car starts up again, Clarice focuses back on her husband. ) I'm sorry. If anything weird happens from now on I'll give you all the details. I was just distracted.

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I know, I know.

[ It's not like he's mad. He's just worried. ]

You want to see the doc, or do you think it'll be fine?

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I'll talk to Lorna first.

( The doctor's fine, he's a nice man, and he helped Clarice with Ava spectacularly. But there's still a part of her that worries. It always gets worse when she's pregnant, the urge to run far away to protect her family sometimes feels like it's choking her. )

She might know something. But if not we can make an appointment.

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[ His hand moves, from her leg to her head, curling down the back of her head and just stroking down her hair, this time reassuring for her. He knows she worries just as much as he does, if not more - it's her body, after, changing so much and being so affected by pregnancy. ]

I wish I could make it easier.

[ At least they're home now. He parks, not wasting any time grabbing Ava from the back - still sleeping, they must be luckier than they used to be - and pulling her tight against his chest. ]

Let's get you both back to bed, yeah?

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You're here. That's all I need.

( He's so good with the both of them. Clarice has to pause for a moment just to watch the way he cradles Ava to his chest, the look of pure love and fierce protection on his face. She loves him so much sometimes it's like an ache inside of her. He's the only man she could have ever had a life like this with, and she's so grateful for it. She pads up the grass of their lawn still in her bare feet, enjoying the way it tickles before she takes the steps and snags the keys from John's pockets. He has their baby, she can at least open the door.

The lights are on from his quest to come and collect her, so Clarice turns them off as he takes Ava to her bedroom. She follows, pausing at the bed to lean in and press a kiss to her soft forehead, brushing her hair back and moving to tuck her carefully under her blankets. Then she's heading to their bedroom, and when John finds his way inside she reaches out for him. He has to duck a little, because her bump is obstructive, but when she kisses him it's sweet and loving. )

I love you, John Proudstar.

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[ It's habit, by now, to get Ava into bed, to make sure she's secure, that the lights are off, that the door is locked, all sorts of small things that would have felt ridiculous a few years ago, when they weren't sure if they would even get to sleep that night. But now, they have a real life and domesticity and routines and John wouldn't change it for the world. Ever.

Clarice kisses him and John leans into it, a hand at the back of her head, before he kisses her forehead, just glad she's safe and fine and home. ]

And I love you, Clarice [ He grins against her skin, because it will never feel old to say it out loud: ] - Proudstar.

[ He pulls back to give her a critical look. ]

Tired?

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I don't know if I can sleep.

( She's a little wired, a little restless. Her little moonlight flit has ignited a wakefulness inside of her. She can probably nap tomorrow, during the day when Ava gets cranky in the afternoon. )

You should get some though.

( He needs less than most people, but she still tries to make sure he's looked after. ) Maybe I'll look at the baby book. I promise this time I portal it into the trash can.

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I got some sleep earlier, I'm fine. [ He knows she's only says this stuff because she cares, and she knows that he tends to push himself to his very limits, but he hasn't had to do that in a long time. He gets a few hours per night, now, which is a lot more than he could say about his sleep patterns from a few years ago.

And if she's restless, he'll never get back to sleep anyway. So he settles, sitting against the headboard on his side of the bed, legs crossed at the ankles as he holds out a hand to Clarice. ]

Why do you keep on reading these things? We've had a kid. We'll be fine with number two.

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( She takes his hand, because it makes it easier to climb on top of their mattress, hand curled protectively round her belly. )

I just don't want to jinx it. What if I forget something? What if I have the baby and every single thought on how to look after it just flies out of my head.

( She's not elegant like this, resting beside him with a huff. Instinctively, she presses her head against his shoulder. )

Besides, it's an updated edition. Very important.

( She's kidding. Maybe. )

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[ With a huff of fond laughter, John turns his head to rest on top of Clarice's, kissing the crown of her hair. ]

You're not going to forget. You're going to be brilliant just like you were with Ava.

[ Reaching out, he puts a hand to her stomach, too, rubbing softly as ever as he uses her own turn of phrase right back. ]

Besides, you've got me. Very important.

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I do.

( There's no point in masking the pure love in her voice. He knows how happy she is with him. Clarice doesn't think she would have even wanted this kind of life without John by her side. He's kept her steady for years now, and she's never lost that rush she felt the first time she laid eyes on him. )

Okay, no more baby books.

( She will give them away. Or maybe mail them to Lauren. She's been talking about kids. )

When's James coming to visit again? Ava's made him a card. I say a card. It's more like a piece of paper she chewed on and then dumped glitter all over.

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[ John sighs, resisting the urge to roll his eyes to himself, even if the feelings in his chest are fond as ever when Clarice mentions his brother. ]

You know him, he says he'll visit next month, and he actually appears three months after that.

[ He's been better, in recent years, less running around, less putting himself in danger. More responsible. But he's still not the reliable Proudstar son. ]

Last time we talked, he said before the baby's born, and for a few weeks after. I think he's treating helping out as some kind of trial by fire, which means I have to grill him about a potential girlfriend.

[ John snorts. ]

I'll have you know she's a true artist.

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Her name's Arianna.

( She says it so casually that she doesn't even register that John doesn't know until he looks at her. Eyebrows arching, she laughs. )

What? You think you're the only Proudstar I can harass answers out of. I thought he told you. I just didn't know he was that serious. But Ava might get a cousin. And whatever this little lump is going to be too.

( Easily. ) He asked me to help him buy her a present. As if I know what girls like. But it must have worked well if he's thinking about.

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[ When Clarice, casually, announces that not only James does have a girlfriend, but also that she knows her name, and has talked to him about it, John straightens out, looking down at her with a a shocked look on his face.

It melts into mild hurt. She didn't tell him? James didn't tell him? ]

So it's serious enough that he's actually offering to babysit for us, but neither of you guys thought of telling me?

[ Ouch. He sits back against the bed, crossing his arms over his chest. Yep, he's pouting. ]

I know I'm not the easiest to talk to when it comes to feelings, but... wow. I hope my children are more willing to communicate than you are.

[ Obviously, he's not being serious. But it still stings. ]

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It was the day you two went off on your camping adventure. I figured he'd brought it up then. ( Clarice used to think John was complicated, but James --. He's never all that good at giving relevant information.

Poking him in the sternum. )

Don't pout. The wind will change and you'll get stuck like that. ( Crap, she is such a mom. ) Honestly, it kind of slipped my mind? I told him that he should get her something she liked. I didn't tell him to get her pregnant.

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[ John snorts. As hard it can be to get any kind of admission of feelings from John - or at least, as hard as it used to be, it's a thousand times harder with James. He hates telling John anything, because he hates that John gives a shit. ]

Yeah, the day James tells me anything about his life is the day my hair falls out.

[ Rolling his eyes, John sighs. He wishes things were different, but he also wouldn't change his brother for anything. It's just the way their relationship works, as frustrating as it can be. ]

Well I'd hope if she was actually pregnant he'd have told us.

[ Nevermind that John didn't tell James about Clarice's first pregnancy until she was already 4 months in.

Proudstars. ]

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I'll sit on him until he tells you. I'll be huge by then, so he'll cave real quick.

( They're a very complicated family. But they're a good one. Clarice knows James and John will figure out their shit eventually. )

I know it sucks, but you're there for each other, which counts?

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[ John snorts. ]

I’d rather you sit on me, [ he replied, unable to help himself and the innuendo. ]

It’s just. I miss him, all the time, but I don’t always know if it’s reciprocated. He’s just so independent.

[ And so is John, but he’s also completely lost on Clarice, and he now realizes he needs her just as much as he needs his independence. ]

But if he’s found someone who’s half as amazing as you, then he’ll be okay.

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You know, just because I can't crush you with my giant pregnant body doesn't mean I don't worry about it being uncomfortable.

( She was huge with Ava. She doesn't know what Baby 2 will be like. )

This is actually hilarious to me, you know that right? You were the most independent. You could have been mad at the sun for giving light if it stopped you from starting a fire yourself.

( He's mellowed, thank god. )

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Your idea of 'giant' is very different from mine. To me, you just look amazing. Big or small, I just...

[ He slides a hand over her stomach, then slides it lower.

He snorts again, pressing his nose to Clarice's temple. ]

I told you, I had a lot to prove. I think James is still there, himself. Wants to show the world he can do whatever he's set to do. And I'm not like that anymore. I've proven myself.

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( His hand moves, and it's meant to be comforting which would be nice, but only if Clarice's hormones didn't have other ideas. Because he touches her and heat prickles up her spine, skin breaking out in goosebumps. )

Mm. You have.

( Her voice is lighter then, cocking her head slightly. She covers John's hand with her own, stroking her thumb over the back of his knuckles. She shifts, and this time it's less to get comfortable and more to press her thighs together. Ava's asleep, she knows that. But she can't just jump John whenever she feels like it.

Or actually, she can, but she doesn't want to be a crazy pregnant lady. )

So. You're definitely not tired?

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[ Her question makes him chuckle, raising an eyebrow. ]

I'm not tired. Why, you got something in mind?

[ It's not like he minds, if she wants to jump him all the time. It kinda got them in the situation they're in, after all, but he'd be the very last person to complain... ]